Lust for God Displaces Sexual Lust
Pleased to find a story on this site about another Christian female who was addicted to sex
Sex became an addiction to me when I was only a teenager. I became promiscuous at a very early age. My father was always too busy for me and he and my mother were divorced when I was six.
While they were married, my bed was always in their bedroom with them due to the fact that we were poor and didn’t have enough money for a 3 bedroom house and I had two older sisters. I don’t remember ever seeing them have sex, but I must have at some point.
As a young teenager, I was approached by other girls older than I to have sex with them out of curiosity and I did. I really enjoyed it but I wouldn’t admit it.
Because of rejection of love from both parents I turned to boys to find love, and my sexual addiction only escalated from there.
I always had sex with almost every boyfriend I had from the time I was 15 on. I have no idea how I didn’t get pregnant – surely it must have been the grace of God. I always fell in love with each boy but they always dumped me after they got the sex that they wanted.
My first husband was a Christian who was brought up in a very strict Christian home, but was addicted to pornography. After we got married I caught him masturbating in the bathroom.
He confessed that he did it daily over any female he had encountered that day. One time he put a porno magazine over my back while we had sex.
I knew that was the last straw. Even though I had been promiscuous, I never knew that a woman could masturbate and I thought it violated my relationship with my husband.
I left him and dated a guy in my twenties who taught me about masturbation, toys, pornography, having sex with multiple partners, etc. I dated him for two years.
I was saved as a teenager but because of my addiction to sex, my relationship with God has always been hindered, sometimes to an almost non-existent poin.t
During the time I dated this man (who was 8 years older than I), I encountered bisexual relationships and learned that I had a very strong appetite for sex, whether it be with a man or a woman.
I put God on the shelf because I felt that God would rather I be hot or cold and if I were lukewarm He would spew me out of his mouth.
I can’t play games with God. I’m sure I need deliverance, but I don’t know if I can give up my lusts just yet. I need help! Please pray for me and the other women who also suffer from this addiction.